CRYING
He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall remain stable and fixed under the shadow of the Almighty [Whose power no for can withstand] Psalm 91:1, AMP
I was up early crying out to God. I felt the Holy Spirit say, “Stay in the bed next to your husband and pray.” As I being to pray I felt no connection at all to the Holy Spirit. Literally, the feeling of desperation, loneliness and hopelessness came over me. I was spiraling down in my feelings and I could feel them leading me to a this place of hopelessness. I cried God, Jesus, help me! But I continued to go to that place of despair.
I got up out of the bed and headed downstairs. I got on my knees and just begin to pray in tears, “God help me!” My mind started to focus on all the mistakes I had made the previous day, and how I may have hurt other people. I could feel everything in me sinking. I just cried out all the more, “God I need you! I know you are here! I know you are my God! Why is there this desperation and loneliness in my soul?” I heard the Father say, “Read Psalm 91.”
I picked up the Bible and began to read Psalm 91. I got through the first four verses and I felt that I missed something so I started at verse one again. There it was “He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall remain stable and fixed under the shadow of the Almighty [Whose power no for can withstand]”. Immediately after reading those words I heard the Holy Spirit say, “Do you trust God enough that you won’t allow your feelings to dictate your position?” My feelings had so overwhelmed me that I was questioning my position with God!
Dwells: reside, live, have one's home, have one's residence, be settled, be housed, lodge, stay; informal hang out, hang one's hat, put up; formal abide, be domiciled, sojourn; archaic bide.
When we accept Christ as our personal savior we live in Him. He is our home. I was questioning my home. I was saying God where are you? I allowed my feelings to cause me to believe that I was not stable and fixed under the hand of God. See, Satan uses our feelings all the time to move us out of our position. God has not moved. My place of residence had not moved. I allowed my feeling to make me believe God had moved.
As I sat meditating He showed me that every time I opened my heart to pray I moved into the sacred place of the Most High. I may not have felt Him at all, but the truth is the only way we can have a conversation with God is in the Most Secret place.
I began to thank God for all the mistakes I had made. For everything that looked like a failure to me. For all of His wonderful plans because they had brought me to this place. Every movement had put me in His presence and caused my heart to search for this intimate relationship with Him.
Family, every move has a purpose. We can be confident that no matter how we feel in the depths of our soul, our home is in Him. When we open our hearts to pray we are in the secret place.
Affirmations: Matthew 10:20; Luke 24:32; Ephesians 6:19, Isaiah 55:11
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